[ Whispers to Shouting to Tears ]

I'm trying hard not to post an emo entry even tho there are erm, two, three..no, FIVE emo entry in my drafts T__T

So I distracted myself editing pictures.
Abes semua gambar yang happy-happy pun jadi emo.
Like one picture of me and my friends having fun and I added some text to it, tros cam emo gle gamba itu jadinye.
Macam kiteorang neh da lama tak ketemu and I blame them all for that walhal HELLO, hari-hari ko mengadap derang je senarnye -_-"

Or something like this.


What's with the text la kan?

Walhal when this picture was taken, I was goofing around with Dina taking turns trying out those statement tees.

See how emo I can be at times?

T____T


Yeah, like I don't have any work to do kan?

*closes Jobstreet page, opens up Word document*


And someone so dear gave me the whole album of Secondhand Serenade just because I loved the Goodbye single song so much.
Now obviously CUKUP-lah perencah untuk menjadi emo queen yang berjayawtf.

T__T

And he was helpful as always, even when I don't need his companion, he'd listened.
He waited for me to open up, but I just cried.

Him : Cakap je. Orang dengar.
Me : I just wanna cry. Tu je.

And after crying over the phone with him saying "dah,dah..", "hmm,da la..sedih la dengar u nanges" and "tamo la camni" between my sobs, I murmured a silent thanks to him and hung up.

He texted;

"Xmo dah nanges, pls. I don't know what's bothering u so much & I rasa helpless bila u camni. Tau?"

It took me awhile before replying.

"I'm just crying over stupidity. I stumbled in2 things dat I shudnt know. It just breaks my heart over & over again."

He replied; "Sebab dia?"

I agreed silently in my mind, my heart and my soul.
It was the stupidest, dumbest, lowest of my time to feel such emotion.

Goodbye
by Secondhand Serenade

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe we're the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we're I've been through
And everything about you him
Seemed to be a lie

A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you him
Or hate myself for letting it you pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you he'd never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye
Bye

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

I don't want to hurt him anymore so this is goodbye for us.
Even though there was never a start between us, or least from me.
I just don't want to give him hope that I'll be...whatever he wants me to be whenever I'm with him -_-"



I texted;

"Thanks 4 being there,biakan I nanges when u xfhm, or when u tau kenape but u wat2 tatau. U r my wonderful guyfriend ever, thanks."

And the sweetest reply ever that I received from him?

"Friends or sweethearts, I will love you still. Tk care."

There goes my mood for today.
I'm off to watch GG Season 2 on the trusty youtube.

**Updated**

I know this ain't needed apetah lagi non-related to the entry, but just in case you were wondering why the picture showed up with a url link that includes the HARAMKENESAMAKHOWCANILOVEHISNAMEBEFORE , it just because yours truly MALAS nak create account baru to upload the picture, hence gune je ape yang ade.

Sekian, terima kasih. *ding ding dong*


Dem.
Can Chuck be any hotter?

*tolak tolak pahala puasa, astaghfirulllahhhhhhhhhhhhh*